Blessed

This deserves a separate entry.

I've done alot of thinking over the last two weeks.
It's amazing how things can happen and all of a sudden you realize how incredibly temporary life is. As you begin to consider that, you begin to wonder at the intricacies of life. What are the odds of anything happening?
What were the odds of my meeting Herman?

Here are the things you need to consider.
From the beginning of time, did God forordain that I would meet him??
He must have. In order for me to meet Herman, every situation required absolute precision, from his conception and birth until this moment. Every decision he made impacted the next decision, and so on and so forth. In addition to this, every decision I made also had a lasting impact.

I often sit back and rue my mistakes. I regret the decisions I made that detract from the wholeness of my character. But then I realize that God has redeemed them. Herman is one manifestation of this redemption. I screwed up beyond belief. Nothing I have done is worthy of blessing. Yet God has blessed me by showing me abundant love.
In spite of all my foolishness, God loves me and blesses me.
God knew what foolish mistakes I would make, and before I made them set into motion a plan to redeem them. What amazing love!!!! He even integrated my mistakes into His plan of salvation for me. Who could do that? What LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!

I do not deserve Herman. Yet God brought us together and has given us the ideal environment for our love to flourish. Even integrating our flaws into the plan, that we may offset the imperfections in each other, always sharpening each other to a greater measure of perfection in Christ

I am blessed beyond words.